16 August 2008

Rest

These days have been rest'less' and I'm feeling it in losts of areas.
. Physically I don't know how to catch up.
. Mentally- I can't take another 'project.'
. Spiritually- I need a fresh word, but I'm not taking the time to listen or sit.

I try to fill my time with things that are seemingly profitable to ministry, to me, or to others, but I don't know how to simply rest.
One specific example of this is my movie-watching-inability:
I don't have a laundry list of movies that I've seen. I simply don't see the purpose of sitting somewhere for 2+ hours. I understand that most people find pleasure in sitting in a cool theatre, finding 'release' in a fictional character or story, but I don't see profit in an unproductive 2 hours.
I find great satisfaction in being on my computer for 2 hours straight. I check email, stay in contact with friends, glean wisdom from articles and blogs, and stay current on world news.
I say all this because I want to learn to rest without an expectation of an end result. I want to learn to rest in Christ's presence and nothing else. I don't want to feel that every moment in my life has to be a search of accomplishment.
Praying that the Lord gives me grace and teaches me about resting in Him!

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