transitioning

This transition from Birmingham to Cape Town is difficult.
Some days I want to think about my move, prepare for the ministry I'll be doing in South Africa and be so excited about this new chapter. But, on many days lately, I want to pretend it's not happening, go about business as usual, go out with friends, talk about life and ministry and live my normal life. I cry almost every day about something - not always a sad-cry, but crying about loving people so much that I don't want to leave. Or, I cry about wanting to be where God's put my heart, wanting to be in Capricorn with the church-plant and Kids Clubs and walking around the community with Maggie.
My heart is being torn in two directions. I'm not complaining; I love being in a place of ministry and looking forward to another great ministry opportunity... I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with these mixed emotions. Praying for God's grace in letting go, changing expectations, and preparing me in His time for His plan.


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Melanie Dill