Who am i?

Melanie is:
. a Student Minister
. a counselor to students and parents
. an artist and graphic designer
. confident
. a natural leader in most group situations
. 'personality' filled
. Single
. Busy
. introverted > extroverted
. involved in lots of surface/ministry relationships
. overwhelmed by the weight of ministry and troubles that surround students

With these qualities, it's hard to have peer-relationship, deep friendships, or any time for community. Many people perceive me as one who has lot of friends, too busy for more activity, joyful in life's activity, and 'fine' by myself. This is anything but truth. As a single, confident, introverted minister, people rarely take time to 'really' know me. It's often my fault too; it's hard to get to know me. Frankly, I've been burned too much by deep friendships- especially with guys- that I don't yearn to open up because I'm weary of the long-run.
So, I now live in a world of misconceptions, a life of ministry purpose but no relationship.
I don't know how long I can live like this. Is the purpose of ministry worth being seemingly miserable in my personal life? Has God called me to THIS life? I truly believe that Glorifying God is far more important than my personal wants or desires.
I guess my prayer is that God adjusts, relines, and molds my desires into His. I want nothing more than God's best for me. I want to be faithful with His call and solely focused.
God grant me the strength, desire and patience to be the woman He wants me to be!