After an amazing experience and meeting with the Lord on a mission trip to Panama in March of 2008, I came home ready to 'conquer' the world and so excited about Ministry. When I got back into life (not even 48 hours after landing in the US-of-A), I was bombarded with 'reality.' Friendships were changing, family was hurtful, ministry too busy, a lack of 'life' stared me in the face. I was overwhelmed, disappointed, dissatisfied, and seriously didn't know how I was going to get away from these feelings.
I took a day or two off, drove to a place that holds some of my only cherished childhood memories... Callway Gardens in Pine Mountain, GA. A familiar location, but I was going to meet with the God that brought me to my knees.
My goal in this trip: to SIT. to LISTEN. to HEAL. to BE RENEWED.
Summer is just around the corner and I knew if I didn't slow down now, I'd get swept away into ministry mindlessness and never truly hear what God's trying to teach me.
So, I went to the Gardens for two days, simply sitting in God's creation, breathing in the fresh Spring air, and trying to be silent in the pursuit of His voice. I didn't come away with a vision or a new direction in life, but I did hear God tell me that He has an amazing, unusual plan for me. All I can do is continue to follow His path, listen to His voice, simply sit in His presence, glean His wisdom and glorify His name. That's a daily process. That's not a mission; it's a life-style.
My solitude retreat gave me confidence in who I am, who God is and who I need to become.
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